Sunday, 23 January 2011

From Tomorrow.

Tomorrow i have the induction to the Royal Cornwall Museum Truro.
And then from the end of that, i am going home, to work on dissertation.

I have until wednesday the 2nd of february to finish it, and then one day to check it, print it and get it bound, then had it in on the 4th of February, then go out and get so drunk and be happy and do nice stuff that i die of relief before the next big project sets in.

Saturday, 22 January 2011

A Night at the Museum.

These are a few of my favourites from the exhibition last night. The quality of the work last night was really great, well done everyone!


Joshua Kerley
Joshua Kerley

Felix McCormack

Rebecca Sims

John Cartwright

Simon Walmsley

Elizabeth Scheller

Thursday, 20 January 2011

Final Pieces.



These are my final pieces on display ready for the exhibition, which is now open.
The private view is tomorrow night at 6pm, im just going for the free wine. I had a good presentation with the museum curators today, but it still doesn't cloud the fact that i only got a third for this project. At least my grade isn't on display with them. That would be embarrassing. It is quite comforting to see people's surprised faces when i tell them what i got, which obviously means than they are better than that in the eyes of the people that would actually see them.

This is my new and revised personal statement that will go along side them at the exhibition:

"In the story of Cinderella, the step-sisters mutilate their feet for the promise of a perfect life if they can fit into a tiny glass slipper. How far would you go for the ‘perfect’ body and there-for a ‘perfect’ life. "

Exhibition.

This is what we have been working towards. I will upload photos of some of my favourites in another post. Come along and see if you are in the area.
Tremough Campus, Penryn, Cornwall.


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I really miss joe today.
I really can't concentrate on work.
I really need a hug.
(or at lease some physical human contact)

Wednesday, 19 January 2011

All 'planned' out.

It feels like all i have actually done today is plan.
We had an introduction to a unit worth 20 credits about our future called Professional Practice. This unit is basically so that we can look at what we really want to do in the future with realistic prospects. The amount of work that has to be done for that is really quite daunting, and i really wish we hadn't had the intro until after dissertation was in, because now it's just one more thing playing on my mind.
(I have had a constant headache since last wednesday, and im running out of paracetamol)

This afternoon i had a tutorial with my dissertation tutor and she then made me realise that i only have TWO WEEKS, to get it done, and i have to re-write everything except half of the final chapter. So basically two weeks of doing nothing other than dissertation. It should be ok. But then i think im just telling myself that so i dont panic. Not that i usually do, but it could easily happen at the moment.
I have highlighted all of the time i intend to work on my dissertation on my timetable, so naturally the whole thing from now until the 4th february is yellow.

I'm just realising how disorientated i am with the dates at the moment. In my minds eye it is still the first week back at uni, and still in the first half of january. It's really not.
And this deadline is really creeping up on me fast.
I really do need to get my act together, but it's not going to happen today.
Tomorrow is business.
From then i become a working recluse with no life.

P.S. I forgot to take a photograph of my work for this mini exhibition, but i will take one soon i promise.

Productive.

Today was much better than yesterday, the blue monday.
I actually got some supports done for my exhibition, which launches tomorrow, and although i only got a third, i am really happy with my pieces.
Now that they are on display, and lit well, they look lovely and i hope others agree.

I will take a picture tomorrow and share what they look like on display.

Pleased.

Tuesday, 18 January 2011

Fail.

My house obviously didn't want me to get to sleep last night.
Housemate on the phone until 2am talking really loud.
Other housemate and boyfriend come back drunk at half 2am. SHAG REALLY LOUDLY.
And then i dont get up until now when i have to go in and work.

Also. A girl just left our house who i dont know.
Im going to go on ben for that one.

Monday, 17 January 2011

Stupid.

It does seem very stupid that i am still up and online, doing nothing very productive. Scanning Topshop, H&M and Tumblr while talking to people on Facebook isn't going to help my uni work in any way. So why am i up. I nearly failed my last project, and it looks like ill fail this one too if im not careful.
Really.
Am i really not serious about my work? This is a joke. Im going to bed.

Thursday, 13 January 2011

Shit in general.

This morning i felt pretty good, well bar a few things.
Just generally felt good, and productive. I went to Uni, got feedback for my work, (as featured in my lat post), and i got a third.
My day went dramatically downhill. It was raining. Windy. Reflecting every aspect of my mood.
In pain. Just so down.
I come home, talk to joe. It doesn't help. I miss him, and im emotional at the moment anyway, so im just crying. Talking about my work and why i almost failed. I need to work so much harder than i am doing. I need to buy materials for my work. Its getting on top of me so much and i feel hopeless.
I cant afford a train ticket to even go home for joe's birthday. I shouldn't even go out this saturday. I can't afford anything at all.
I really want to go home for joe, but i dont think i can. I need to work harder at uni, its the weekend before my dissertation deadline, so already thats not a good start. I am already half way into my overdraft, so i can barely afford a present yet alone a train ticket.
Everything is so piled at the moment. All on my chest and i cant do anything except cry. I cant think straight.
Im going to have to think of some money making solutions.
Im going to have to work much much harder.
Im going to have to try and keep everything nice with joe without seeing him somehow.

I cant stop crying tonight.

Tuesday, 11 January 2011

Collar Bone Adornments.


These pieces are all made from raised Brass. Shaped to the contours of an exaggerated form of some collar bones. The original mould was from my own, but i carved away at that mould to make the bones even more prominent.







Collar Bone Decorative Plates

In the story of Cinderella, the stepsisters cut off their toe and heel in belief that they will receive the perfect life as the Prince’s bride, from this small task of making their feet fit into a glass slipper.

In today’s society, having the ‘perfect’ body is seen as a necessity to be happy. In extreme cases it is desirable to be so thin that you have protruding bones. If these features are indeed such a desirable aspect of the social norm, then why are there not more adornments for these protruding details?

How far would you go, for the promise of the perfect happy ending?

Summer Anticipation



Monday, 10 January 2011

Ela Zubrowska


Just found this Artist who has done this project called Water to Water.
Im not sure how she does it, but the results of what she does is amazing. I am in love with the form and the shapes that are created.

Find it HERE.

Tuesday, 4 January 2011

Some of All.

As you do when you start a new year, you start thinking about the previous one, and the one to come. What will you do? Have you learned from last year? Really? What are your expectations? What do you think the reality will be?

Honestly, i think this year is going to be a complete copy of 2010. I'm doing more or less exactly the same as i was doing this time last year, so why should it change? My situation hasn't changed, and until it does i don't think there is going to be much variation in how i live my life. For the next 7 to 8 months anyway. I say 7 to 8 months, because i finish uni this year. Sometime in July, i will have finished my 3 years of a Contemporary waste of time. (Contemporary Crafts).
Last year, spring term, i actually did quite a bit of work, and i will have to have a repeat of this to even do slightly well for my degree. Already i am dreading the 4th February, (dissertation hand-in), but i am slightly ahead in advancing an actual life for after uni rather than being stuck at home with my parents going 'So now what?'.
The project we are currently doing, called Revealing Collections, at the Royal Cornwall Museum, is making some form of reaction to an artefact in the collection at the museum, focusing on different attitudes toward sex in different times and relating them to modern day attitudes through the things that we make. I took on the take of body image, and you can see some of the development for this work in some previous posts.
On the 20th January i will be training in the museum as a volunteer, and to be honest i think i would rather be doing this, and feeling like i was actually doing something that might help future prospects of my life career-wise rather than sitting in the studio staring at an empty page in my sketchbook and trying to convince my tutors that im doing work. The thing is, the volunteering is going to be with the collection that we are supposed to be making these objects for, so im not sure if it is going to go down that well with my tutors. My thinking of it is, that its not necessarily the qualifications that get you a job. Say i were to get a 2:2 grade Degree; this might get me an interview, but if i were to go along with some experience in a relevant field then it would most likely swing getting the job instead of only turning up with a Number and a Name of an establishment on a piece of paper. THIS, is what im doing it for. A foot in the door rather than a knock on a brick wall.
Spring term doesn't really hold many distractions for me,(apart from Joe's 23rd birthday), so i should be able to get a nice bulk of work done without too much difficulty.
Summer term is a COMPLETELY different story. I live by a beach, in Cornwall for god sake. WHY would i want to go into uni when i could go and relax and enjoy my last summer in Falmouth on a beach in the beautiful baking sun? WHY?
This will be my downfall. Especially when i have to prepare for my Degree Show, in which i intend to make a collection of elegant silver jewellery, combined with slate and/or feathers. Silver, in-particular, being very expensive, means that there won't be much fun times that involve picnics on the beach with Chloë, and warm nights out with Sailor Jerry's and Coke. My budget will defiantly be a problem. Summer term last year. The above was ALL that happened. I almost didn't even pass my project with the National Trust because i would rather go to the beach. It was wonderful.
Honestly rather be on a Beach and fail, than be working my ass off and get a 2:2/3rd. I'm not greatly committed to work i must admit. I'd rather live.

Another good thing about spring not being that eventful is that i can save some money up, and hopefully i wont have to be too worried about going into summer term broke and panicking about buying materials.
So, im going to buy these BEASTY headphones,(£15), just to make up for the lack of spending im going to do. Right now i'm listening to Spanish Sahara by Foals through a pair that my parents got for my boyfriend for Christmas. My goodness, let me tell you, its like sex through sound in your ears.
The frequency range on these is really good and you hear absolutely everything! The highs, the lows, the voice, in-fact, just the very essence of the music. If it's good music, it will make you wet. The sound is so clear and full. Beautiful. (And they look awesome)

As always im trying to lose weight, over Christmas i havn't put on as much as i expected which can only be a bonus, but im using different scales so i wont be putting up any measurements until im back in falmouth, but it's not too bad. I've decided that i'm getting a head start on my summer body, i will look awesome in denim shorts and vests. Plan: Eat when hungry. Simple.

Moving forward a little, past summer, after Uni. So really what do i do? WELL, i am going to be moving in with Joe, most likely in Bath. Maybe with other people too, but we'll see. There are certain people i will not allow myself to live with., but thats a plan for another day, depending on who we meet and situations etc. Bath would be lovely.
  1. Because it's Bath, the most beautiful city in the country.
  2. There are lots of potential job opportunities, with galleries, museums and studios to work in and maybe make jewellery
  3. I'm somewhere that things actually happen, with nice pubs and good clubs
  4. I'd be living in my first dream place, (whether the house is ideal or not)
From there, we'll see. That is the cut-off point for my plans for 2011 at the moment. Past September i cant plan, because so many things are going to change.

I am currently in Bath at Joe's house, in his freezing cold room, and about to sleep on his little single mattress, not usually the best nights sleep, but the novelty of a new place hasn't worn off just yet.

Monday, 3 January 2011

My Favourite Christmas Presents.




In no particular order.
Pencils from my brother, Cupcake, cup measure from joes brother and co but chosen by him ha, and Glockenspiel from Joe too.
He's Good.

Sop.

I have been with joe almost constantly for the last 3 weeks and now im facing not seeing him very much for another 11 weeks and its KILLING ME.
It's now one in the morning and all i want to do is go over to joe's and snuggle up in bed with him.

WHAAAAA

Sunday, 2 January 2011

Resolutions. 2011

  1. Weigh 9st and stay at that weight
  2. Take my university work seriously
  3. Time manage properly
  4. If uni fails, make an effort at getting a good start at real life
  5. Enjoy everything i do

Monday, 20 December 2010

Snow etc.


I have been taking lots of pictures on my lomo of the snow and christmas lights, and being all festive, but i cant find anywhere that will develop them for a nice price and in square format. So no-one will see any of this festivity until AFTER the holidays and when im back in falmouth.

Anyway, what about this snow huh? Crazy, we probably will have a picturesque white christmas and everyone is moaning. This is what you want you know.
Ok yes its annoying that christmas presents from the internet might not turn up in time. But its like the first white christmas in FOREVER!
amaazing.

Being home is average, my mum and dad aren't bugging me about getting a job for once. Which is just weird really.
I have my lovely new mac, and im on it now, its lovely and shiny and new and white and nice and mmmmm.

I am just planning Joe's christmas hamper of baked goods as he doesn't actually want anything. So ill make him shit-loads of sugary snacks.

Weight? Well i havn't weighed myself in a little while but i still feel t
he same so im hoping i havnt put much on yet, christmas eve/day/boxing day is just going to be a massive binge, but its christmas and cant be helped. But after that it wont be too bad to get back on track.

Here is a picture of me to keep anyone who actually reads this going.
Im going to go and ice the christmas cake.

Tuesday, 14 December 2010

Annoyance.

There are two boxes downstairs.
One containing my new laptop.
One containing the rest of my free stuff.
The only problem is, that i cant open the boxes until the installation engineer comes to set everything up.
I dont need them to do this.
AND
i have to wait until thursday for this pointless exercise.
Until then i am not allowed to open the boxes. Or it will make the service and warranties invalid.
SO ANNOYING.

Friday, 10 December 2010

OKAY.

Today i am going home for christmas.
I weighed myself, (9st5lbs!) as it is inevitable that i will put on weight over the holidays. My will power isn't going to be very strong when there is shit loads of lovely food everywhere. And alcohol.. DOWNFALL.

I am so excited. I get to see joe again today. I get hugs from my mummy and jokes from my daddy which will actually cure my disgusting illness. A takeaway later, (see food already). Visit my Godparents at their new house which is supposedly in a beautiful site. (Camera at the ready).

Tuesday AH. New laptop, and accessories.
SO EXCITED FOR THIS HOLIDAY

Tuesday, 7 December 2010

Ill.

I can't remember in my life, a time when i was this ill. Not seriously ill, but i dont think i have ever had a cold as bad as this.
I can barely sleep. If i do i wake up with a horrible hacking cough.
EURGH
It really couldn't have come at a worse time either, my deadline for my work is on friday and there is no excuse for not finishing. I'm not going to get a very good mark anyway, but i really need some beautiful pieces to present or i might as well just quit uni now.
It's possible, but working with a cold like this is just a pain.

Monday, 6 December 2010

There was some Frost on the Ivy.



Dates to look forward to:

Friday, 10th December:
  • End of Term
  • Assessments
  • Visit my god parents new house
  • Go home and have a proper meal
  • See joey
Saturday, 11th December:
  • Wake up warm in bed with Joe
  • Go to see Joe's house in Bath
  • Have a bimble around bath for jobs
  • Christmas Shopping
Tuesday, 14th December:
  • My dyslexic equipment, including a brand new Macbook arrives

These are the main excitements for the next week or so. I hope this holiday is good.
But first i need to get into uni and finish my pieces.
And at the moment i am very ill, so it's quite hard to bring myself to do so, but i only have three days to finish everything...

Sunday, 5 December 2010

Into The Wild.

I just watched the film of Into the Wild.
It is in credibly moving and a brilliant story. I know its based on a real story, but it has a perfect magic to it.
I cant stop thinking about it. With my own desires to travel.
In some ideal time i will live somewhere beautiful, and educate myself in the arts.I will learn Music. I will draw, i will take beautiful photographs of my surroundings. I will write down my thoughts constantly. I will read and have shelves upon shelves of books.
Maybe Scotland, by a loch, in the country, where it snows.

Friday, 3 December 2010

Winter will always be my favourite time of year.


  • Memories
  • The cold
  • Being cosy
  • Halloween
  • Seeing your breath
  • Bonfire Night
  • Hot drinks (Single shot Latte with Coconut)
  • Overhype for christmas
  • Being cold
  • Christmas market in Bath
  • Mulled Wine
  • Advent Chocolate
  • Presents on christmas
  • Board Games
  • Drinking from 10am
  • A lazy boxing day
  • Turkey curry/sandwiches with bubble and squeak
  • possibly snow
  • lots of frost
  • laughs
  • temporary money
  • New years eve
  • Fireworks
  • New starts
  • Being cold.

Wednesday, 24 November 2010

The Sleeping Prince.

Once upon a time there lived a king and queen who had one daughter whom they loved dearly. Now on a day in winter, when the countryside was covered with snow, she was sitting at her window sewing. As she sewed she pricked her finger, and a drop of red blood fell on the sill in the golden sunlight. And a bird in a tree outside sang:

"Gold and white and red,

The prince sleeps in his bed."

The princess was struck by these words, and called out: "Pray, little bird, sing again!" And the bird sang:

"White and red and gold,

He shall sleep till time is old."

The princess cried: "Ah, little bird, sing again!" And the bird sang:

"Red and gold and white,

He wakes on St John's Night."

"But what does your song mean?" asked the princess. So the bird told her that in a castle far, far away, and further still, there dwelt the noblest and handsomest prince in the world, with skin as white as snow and lips as red as blood and hair as golden as the sun. A spell had been cast over him, so that he fell into a deep sleep from which he could wake only once a year, on St John's Night. And thus it would be until the end of time. But if a maiden were to watch beside his bed, so that he might see her when he woke, then the spell would be broken.

"And where is this castle?" asked the princess.

"I do not know," said the bird, "except that it is far, far away, and further still, so that to get there you must wear out a pair of iron shoes."

Days passed, and the princess could not forget the song the bird had sung. At last she said to herself that she must and would go to find the Sleeping Prince, and free him from the spell. But as she knew that her father and mother would never consent to let her make such a journey, she said nothing to them. She had a pair of iron shoes made, and as soon as they were ready, late one night, she put them on and left the palace.

When the king and queen missed her next morning, they sent men to search throughout the country. But the princess eluded her searchers, and got out of the kingdom without being seen by anyone. Her father and mother grieved much, for they thought that she must be dead.

The princess walked on and on in her iron shoes, far, far, and further still, until she came to a great dark forest. She did not turn aside, but went straight on into the forest, and late in the evening she saw a lonely cottage. She knocked at the door, and an old woman opened it and asked what she wanted.

"I am searching for the castle of the Sleeping Prince," said the girl. "Do you know where it is?"

"Not I," said the old woman. "But I can give you a bite to eat and a drop to drink, and then you must go back to where you came from, for this is no place for a mortal woman."

"No," said the princess. "I must go on."

"If you must, you must," said the old woman. "Come in, then, my dear, and when my son the West Wind gets home I will ask him if he knows the way. But you must take care he does not see or hear you."

So she let the princess in, and gave her some supper, and hid her in the corner cupboard. Soon there was a rushing and a sighing of rain outside, and in came the West Wind.

"Mother," sighed he, "I smell mortal flesh."

"Oh, my son," said his mother, "don't be angry! It was only a poor girl in iron shoes who came by here today, wanting to know the way to the castle of the Sleeping Prince."

"That I do not know," said the West Wind. "Perhaps my cousin the East Wind may have seen it."

As soon as it was light the next morning the princess started on her journey again. She walked on and on, far, far, and further still, in her iron shoes. The sun scorched her and the rain wetted her. At last late one evening she came to another cottage, where another old woman asked what she wanted.

"I am searching for the castle of the Sleeping Prince," said the princess. "Do you know where it is?"

"Not I," said the old woman. "But I can give you a bite to eat and a drop to drink, and then you must go back to where you came from, for this is no place for a mortal woman."

"No," said the princess. "I must go on."

The old woman shelters the princessThe old woman offers the princess shelter. Illustration: Rui Tenreiro

"If you must, you must," said the old woman. "Come in then, my dear, and when my son the East Wind gets home I will ask him if he knows the way. But you must take care he does not see or hear you, for he would be very angry." So she let the princess in, and gave her some supper, and hid her in the corner cupboard.

Soon there was a shrieking and a whirring of dust outside, and in came the East Wind.

"Mother," shrieked he, "I smell mortal flesh!"

"Oh, my son," said his mother, "don't be angry! It was only a poor girl in iron shoes who came by here today, wanting to know the way to the castle of the Sleeping Prince."

"That I do not know," said the East Wind. "But perhaps my cousin the North Wind may have seen it."

As soon as it was light the next morning the princess started out again. She walked on and on, far, far, and further still, in her iron shoes. The sun scorched her and the rain wetted her, till her fine clothes were worn to rags. At last late one evening she came to another cottage. When the old woman who lived there saw her, she was frightened and tried to send her away.

"No," said the princess. "I must go on, for I am seeking the castle of the Sleeping Prince."

"If you must, you must," said the old woman. "Come in then, my dear, and when my son the North Wind gets home I will ask him if he knows the way. But you must take care he does not see or hear you, for he would kill you."

So she let the princess in, and gave her some supper, and hid her in the corner cupboard. Soon there was a terrible roaring and blowing of snow outside, and in came the North Wind.

"Mother," roared he, "I smell mortal flesh!"

"Oh, my son," said his mother, "don't be angry! It was only a poor ragged girl in iron shoes who came by here today, wanting to know the way to the castle of the Sleeping Prince."

"Well, that is easy," said the North Wind. "The path outside our door leads directly to it."

"Then she will find the castle," said his mother, "for that is the road she took."

"Yes," said the North Wind with a loud laugh, "and little good will it do her, for the gate is guarded by two huge lions who devour all who try to pass through."

"Is there no way for her to enter the castle, then?"

"There is one way," said the North Wind. "If she were to pick two of the white roses that grow by our door and throw them at the lions, they would lie down and let her pass."

As soon as it was light the next morning the princess set out, taking with her two white roses from the bush by the North Wind's door. She walked on and on, far, far, and further still. The sun scorched her and the rain wetted her and the snow chilled her. At last she looked down, and saw that her iron shoes were worn quite through. She looked up, and saw before her the towers of a castle.

Soon she came to the gate, and saw the two great lions guarding it. When they caught sight of the princess they began to growl and paw the ground and show their teeth, so that she wanted to run away. Yet all the same she went on. Just as the lions began to spring at her she threw the white roses at them; and at once they became tame, and began to purr and rub themselves against her like kittens. The gates opened for the princess, and she walked barefoot into the castle.

Inside she found many rooms, all of them furnished as magnificently as any prince could desire. But what was most strange was that everyone and everything in the castle was asleep, and try as she might the princess could not wake them. The servants were asleep in the hall, the cook and maids in the kitchen, the gardener in the garden, the groom and the horses in the stable, the cows in the barn, the chickens and ducks in the poultry yard, and even the flies on the wall.

The princess searched through all the rooms of the castle, and at last she came to a bedchamber hung with curtains of silver, and on the bed asleep lay the handsomest prince in the world. His skin was white as snow, his lips as red as blood, and his hair golden as the sun. The princess could not wake him, so she sat down beside his bed. Just as evening fell, a table covered with the most delicious supper appeared before her; and when she had eaten, it vanished. All night long she watched by the sleeping prince. At dawn the table appeared again, and vanished when she had eaten, just as before.

The days passed, and the weeks, and the months. Still the princess sat every night by the side of the sleeping prince, waiting for him to wake. At last it came to be St John's Eve, but she did not know it, for she had lost count of time on her long journey.

At midnight the clock in the tallest tower, which had until then been silent, began to strike. On the stroke of 12 the prince yawned, opened his eyes, and saw the princess sitting beside his bed, barefoot and in rags like a beggar maid.

"At last, the spell has been broken!" he cried.

Now there was a noise and clamor of voices downstairs, a neighing and mooing and clucking and quacking, as everyone in the castle awoke from their long sleep: the servants in the hall, the cook and maids in the kitchen, the gardener in the garden, the groom and the horses in the stable, the cows in the barn, the chickens and ducks in the poultry yard, and even the flies on the wall. But the prince paid no heed to any of this, for he was gazing at the princess.

"Whoever you may be, my life belongs to you," he said. "Will you marry me?"

The princess looked into his eyes, and saw that he was as good and brave as he was beautiful. "With all my heart," she said.

And so they were married with great ceremony and feasting that lasted for three days. Then the prince and princess mounted on the two fastest horses in his stable, and rode to the castle of the king and queen, who were overcome with joy to see their daughter again. As for the prince, though he was surprised to discover that his wife was not a beggar maid after all, he was not happier, for he already loved her more than all the world.

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

Feeling Pretty Awesome right now.

I managed to finish my third chapter of my dissertation tonight quite early so i actually had a decent meal at a normal time for the first time in a week. Also, the meal i just had, wasn't that special, but nostalgic: Tinned Spaghetti on toast topped with TONNES of grated cheese. I have really lovely music on, singing away! It has really put me in a great mood.
Not to mention, i have lost 3lb, which just makes anyone feel better about themselves. I have my tattoo and its healing nicely, and i just generally feel good in my own body. Win.

It's getting colder and joe is in bath now, and its icy apparently. I wish i was there with him. Only two weeks and a bit until this happens though. Im always gutted around this time of year, because im missing the weather at home. In falmouth it really is awful. Just spit rain and gale force wind all the time. In bath, and at home, you get frost, and you can see your breath and its lovely AND IM MISSING IT! I'm also missing the christmas market in bath. Which i havn't been to since i have been at uni, plus side of this... Its my last year... FINALLY.

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

This Time Last Year..


City of Lights in Truro.
I am now on the first page of the website, and on the first image rotation at the top. BAHA.

Even if there is a Vague idea of a plan in action, i wont panic about my future.

Talking to joe tonight, and hes having trouble with certain things about his flat, things being signed on time and people and lack of work doing etc.
We just got onto talking about next year and what we would like to be doing after University. We both would like the bohemian lifestyle and i really think it could happen.
He was saying that after the hassle of moving in with friends it might be nice to live together, and in a three bedroom house with a garage. Basically so we can have a bedroom each so we still get our space, and then he can have the extra bedroom, for his music, then i have the garage for my jewellery making. I say three bedroom so that we can still have a nice living room without sacrificing it for joe's music stuff or my art stuff, and a place where we can both get away from whatever we are doing and relax. A nice neutral area of the house to be together. maybe with a little tv, a bookshelf full of books and DVDs, with some game consoles, speakers, a nice vintage sofa, coffee table etc etc. and a nice kitchen, one that looks tidy when there is nothing in it. There would be nothing more annoying to me than a kitchen that didn't look clean when it was actually clean. No awful colours in the bathroom. Ideally neutral throughout.
Any way.
The plan..
Even though it is only vague, perhaps living with Joe, working a part-time job like 4 or 5 days a week, just enough to live and support my jewellery making, which i could do in the evenings after work, then drop my stuff at home and then go of and watch joe practising or performing somewhere, have a few drinks and go home with joe, and relax.

A reason that id want two bedrooms is that, as much as i love joe, im not ready to sacrifice my taste in decor just yet, and i like to get dressed without being watched, dance in the mirror, sing at the top of my lungs.. pretty embarrassing things that i wouldn't really want to show off. I love having a space that i can make my own. Joe aswell needs his space, for work, himself, music, brooding, whatever else men do when they are on their own.
And when we feel like it we can be together, we could sleep in each-others bed. And if for some reason things didn't work out, then we have our own rooms, and it would be a hell of a lot easier to avoid each-other. I really hope that doesn't happen though. I think i would really love living with joe.

Yes i like the idea of a plan, even if its to change, or that it is quite far away in the future. I just dont like the idea of the future being open, with all the possibilities staring at me, and making me panic. I'm not ready to be lost just yet.

Monday, 15 November 2010

Either 'And', 'Or'.

Thinking about after uni, in a realistic sense.
The other day i had a little breakdown about it. Thinking that what i chose to do now, for after i leave uni, the immediate after, will be what i do for the rest of my life. I felt trapped and just panicked. I have savings, so these can help me with my options. They could help me get a flat or small house to rent in bath. OR they could let me go on a small travel around europe. When i say travel, i mean a stingy holiday, in france and italy.
The thing is, i could get a flat or house in bath and get a full-timish job, then save money to go traveling, but it would be increasingly harder to leave that life should i begin it, financially and emotionally, and it would also be harder to get the time off work without actually leaving.
The other side would be if i went travelling or on my stingy holiday, i would use up my savings on that and then be stuck in my parents house for ages, and end up getting a job in frome rather than bath.
I'm not sure what to look for job-wise aswell, i quite like the idea of working in a museum or a gallery, so i can still be around the art world and have fresh inspirations to use in my work, whatever i may do. I'm not sure quite what it entails.

I just made a nice little song on Ableton, so it might be nice to make music with joey one day, even though he is infinitely better at it than me. He just has a natural talent.
I could get some screen printing equipment. Make some t-shirts? With some original designs that i would actually like, all illustrated by me, and joe if he likes. and if chloe get screwed over and has nothing to do, it could be a possibility.

There is so much yet so little that i can do after uni. I can do whatever i like but i still feel trapped. I dont even finish until the beginning of july so i feel like i am over reacting.. oooh
stress.
And i have to write my dissertation by the end of next week, and i really should have written the first chapter by now.

EURGH.

Sunday, 14 November 2010

Sunday, 7 November 2010

Scanned in the Lomos.





Favourite Animals.

Bengal Tiger.
Fox.
Swallow.
Crow. (because of wings and black feathers)
Certain Cats.

Saturday, 6 November 2010

Favourite Smells.

The Smell of Rain on Dry Ground.
The Smell of Basil Leaves when they get ruffled.
The Smell of Fresh Camera film.
The Smell of Bath on a crisp winter morning.
The Smell of my Fabric Softener. (Gold orchid)
The Smell of Stargazer Lillies.
The Smell of Joe after a few hours of having a shower.
The Smell of Sautéed onions.


Wednesday, 3 November 2010

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

Some actual work.


These are a couple of the wax forms but in copper, they havn't been shined up but i am really liking the shapes that i am getting at the moment. There will be lots more to come, but i am feeling pretty good about the presentation to Royal Cornwall Museum on friday, and i have my concept DOWN. So its all good.

(im ignoring dissertation until the end of the week)

My Project at uni has evolved into being about anorexia.

Basically, i have been looking at corsets and body image, from that, looking at the modern world that we live in, then what is the desired body shape today, (fuelled by the media), then progressing onto the extremes of Anorexia and how the vanity points, are not necessarily the Breasts or the waist, or anything really sexual, but instead the desired features seem to be protruding collar bones, ribs and hips. There is a simple question that has come from this development..

If protruding bones are such a desired feature within the anorexic community then why has there not been any decoration or adornments to either exaggerate or highlight these features?

So that is what i am making. Jewellery and body adornments to decorate these areas. I am mainly concentrating on the collar bones at the moment, as i have quite prominent collar bones anyway, (when i sit a certain way), but i cant really find anyone who is genuinely anorexic who would be willing to work with me. As of yet anyway.

I will be posting some stuff up later, watch this space.