Sunday, 24 August 2014

Enemy


My own sleeping brain is my number one worst enemy.

How do you turn off the worst thoughts when you are not conscious.

Being alone with myself.

It's not nice.


Tuesday, 19 August 2014

Steam from the earth.

There is a rising mist with the sun.
Grey clouds low hung.
A smell of fire and smoke so strong.

Yet we are still living in August.

Autumn have you come to greet me early? 


Monday, 11 August 2014

What am I doing?


Choosing to be alone.
Alienating.
For a supposed guilt.

It's hard on the brain.

I shouldn't have to feel this way.

Thursday, 7 August 2014

A turn.

There is a good that comes from every evil.


"Harmony in the world within means the ability to control our thoughts and to determine how any experience is to affect us."


Saturday, 2 August 2014

Always lost.


You know.
I think I might be finding myself again.
It's taken over 5 years.

I miss a few things.
Nostalgia.

Change is not always good.
Choices are not always correct.
And.
Life is not always fun.

You can lose yourself.
Easily.
When faced with your own terrible, trapped thoughts.

But you pull through.
You always pull through.
Eventually.

Little by little.
I will find myself again.
Through positive change.

I can see myself.
From afar.
Emerging like I was.
The confident young woman that I used to be.
So happily.
But now.
With a few more experiences tucked under my belt...

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

I lied.


I'm not really doing the best at keeping this thing up to date.

I will.

Maybe when I am sat in my Beach hut on events square next year.
Maybe when I have real internet to use.
Maybe when I have things to say.


I will.

Sorry.
Again.

Sunday, 8 June 2014

Ok, swim.

 

It's strange, that feeling you get. 
The one where you realise that you are ok.
The one after you finally do something that you have had sitting on a to-do list for three or more years. 

I'm blubbered up. 
I live by the sea.
In my own little house. 
And I love it. 

It's all ok.

Thursday, 8 May 2014

Restart.



I have been aloof.

Today I bought a nice new desk.
A table with a table cloth.
It is all I need.

Making my Wendy house a home.
One step at a time.