Almond Shortbread Hearts.

Finally..

Finally found her! the person who made this beautiful beast. Debra Baxter. I am in love with her work. It's simplistic, rough, and original. I love it.

Mini Diana.

This is my new toy.

General.

Uni> shite, as always.

Sex project. yay. eurgh.

STUDENT LOAN HELLO!

Spree.

Shopping on friday. Awesome.

Joined the Gym. Fit.

Mexican tomorrow night.

YAY

Seeing C's.

I just recieved these LOVELY jewels from Sugar and Vice Jewellery!

They are so much better than i expected! This was a custom design that they did for me, and man they delivered.

Thankyou Sarah and Arnie!

Some favourites from summer 2010.

Favourites from Venice.

Favourites from Glasto 09.

Back in the Fal area.

Pretty Ecstatic about having a new housemate, who ADORES FOOD!!!

like recipes and healthy stuff and she at this moment in time is cooking a steak casserole thing and it smells INCREDIBLE. literally cant describe how good it smells.

Proper home comfort food. I wish someone would hurry up and invent a way to share smell over the internet.

Other than this, the last day and a half has been pretty boring.

Today i was bored beyond belief. With joe at uni aswell i didn't have anyone to talk to all day.

Though chloe was on skype so that was slightly better.

I'm thinking to tackle my boredom now, and prevent myself eating everything in the fridge out of boredom , i will scan in some pictures. From Venice, polaroids, Glasto 09 possibly..

I will post a few up here in a while.

Everything.

9.10 again.

Oh well.

I had some soup today, and i dont think i'll have much else.

I am meant to be packing to go back to uni, but i dont think it will really take that long so i am really procrastinating, When all i have to do is bung some clothes in a bag and some books for uni in a box.

Im being so lazy.

Joe started uni again today, and found out that from now he has 5 day weeks. So any time he comes to falmouth will be really short visits, probably only for a day. Two if we are lucky.

I knew third year was going to be harder, but i thought it meant work-wise. I dont want it to put a strain on me and joe, when we might not be able to see each other at all.

Basically if there are ANY sections of time that last for more than two whole days and i dont have to do anything, i am going back to see joe.

I'm shitting it really though. I have to do my dissertation. I have to work with a museum project. I have to make a huge final year project full of research and stuff.

I have to be professional and not go out all the time. I have already resolved as to not going to the clubs this year. No matter what. Club-I and Shades are officially Banned from my falmouth nights. I want to avoid people that annoy me. I want to avoid people who i dont like. I want to avoid people with whom i have false conversations with. I want to erase people from my life this year as i get ready for my real life after uni. I don't know what anyone would really think of that. But i will get a first. And i dont need any pointless distractions getting in my way.

It sounds petty but as soon as term ends in the summer. and my uni life is over. I will be deleting all the people that i hope to never see again from facebook. I know a few of them there will be no doubt that i will forget them and they will forget me. I really couldn't care less about these people. I know everyone says to never burn your bridges, but screw that. I hate these people.

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There is a plan-ish, after uni. Me and joe will go travelling. Ending up in australia or new zealand. We are planning on getting full time jobs from the moment we finish uni and then saving all money possible for getting out of this country. Leaving after christmas in 2012. Starting off city hopping in europe, if we like there stay a few days, if we hate somewhere leave straight away. Work from southern europe like Italy, up to Switzerland and above, then moving across via train to Moscow. Then down to Japan. I somehow want to do a brief visit to india. Literally to go sight seeing. Japan is daunting for me, but that is joe's main place. And really why not? when am i ever going to see it again. Joe was on about getting a job in australia and things but it just sounds exactly what his brother did, and i think joe would be disappointed in australia. It is the UK, just hotter. But im not going to make his mind up for him. New Zealand however... YES. I am not really that interested in seeing much of america. It would be an experience. but it just doesn't appeal to me as of yet.

I just want to experience something that is new. Uni.. what a fucking joke.

Baked.

I made some shortbread today....

I also made some Cupcakes...

The Cupcakes dont look as good as the Shortbread.

I am so chuffed with the biscuits i might just make loads and sell them next term when we have to raise money for our exhibition show.

Damn.

So after getting to 9st9lbs, for some reason, today i have shot back up to 9st11 and im not really that happy about it.

I havn't done anything different either. Though it could be from natural womanly causes, but still. Annoying.

Decided.

I will weigh 9st by the 1st December.

and when i reach this goal i will buy myself some lovely new undies for christmas.

Yes.

Need.

Hat.

Shy Duck.

Shopped.

I little shopping on a friday in bath. I love it. I only really spent £26 but i had a voucher to use at Topshop, so that helped alot. I got a Tweed look jacket, its so soft and lovely, and some high-waisted jeans, they look black in the picture but they are just dark blue, and i got a couple of simple tees from H&M. I was actually a little disappointed with both of the shops today, even though i wasn't going to buy much more than this, i was at least hoping to try some things on so that i could see if they were worth having in my online baskets. But no, there was only one in Topshop and one in H&M. Oh well. It was a nice little purchase anyway. I cant wait to wear it all out.

The Beginnings of Uni work.

Year Three is upon us and i need to get a move on, i have a lot of work to do before the beginning of term.

FRINGE.

Next time i am bored with my hair, Im going to get a pixie cut. Promise.

Mini Raffy.

This is a late birthday present from Paul, Libby & Co. Its awesome, you get to decorate it however you want, and its so cute. Im having so much fun with it. EVERYONE SHOULD GET ONE!

Drinkable Calpol.

Im not sure about this, it literally tastes like watered down Calpol. Or a weaker version of the Strawberry Brothers Cider. It looks nice though.

TO DO//Autumn Term 2010:

Basically me and chloe keep saying that we should do things when we are at uni and most of the time the plans come to nothing or a meagre imitation. SO, we have a New Term Resolution that we are going to do EVERYTHING that is on this list, unless it is physically impossible, OR we are both skint.

TO DO//Autumn Term 2010:

1. Join Tremough gym, £20 membership
2. Go to Truro and do a massive beginning of term clothes shop
3. Have a decent meal made by Tash from an awesome recipe ATLEAST once a month
4. Beer & Burrito for £5 on Tuesday the 5th October
5. Once a month have a house gathering, where each girl choses a magazine, a bottle of wine and a film each to entertain us for the evening
6. Wear our new Wedges out as much as possible
7. Go to different places when we go out and try to avoid always ending up in Club-I
8. Have as many Coconut Coffees and Chai Lattes in Nero as we can handle
9. Start a lookbook...
10. ...Then record every outfit, new clothes/accessories that we deem worthy to go on it
11. Take more nice pictures of each other when we are out (more of Tash as she is always behind the camera)
12. Grow a lovely Herb garden
13. Do a liquid diet week, (if we can manage it that long)-mainly soup and alcohol
14. Buy/Make some nice cushions for the living room
    
15. Go to the beach more often
16. Go to the Firework Display with a hip-flask full of whiskey
17. Get chloe to like Whiskey (Personal Goal of Tash's)
18. Have a festive 'Uni-Christmas Day' with stockings, a big roast(made by tash), movies, mulled wine, presents..etc
19. Snow Ball- pampering day and champagne included
20. Hang out in Falmouth more, Day and Night
21. Go to the Christmas Market
22. Decorate Chloes room.
    
23. Get a nice Poster/Picture and frame for the front room
24. Renovate Sofa
    
25. Get Tattoos
26. October 2nd, Celebrate Chloe completing the house

Watch this Space..

The other day i got 10 disposable cameras developed. I used them ages ago. There are some of venice, glastonbury fest 09, lots of falmouth and random others.

Im going to put the few best pictures up on here, and will link them to my tumblr aswell.

Next week will be a picture full week for my blog.

Baked.

For my birthday i was planning to have a nice tea party, with alot of cupcakes. So we made lots of cupcakes. Sadly my birthday was a bit o a fail and didn't even come close to my expectations. Lame 21st, but i guess thats growing up. I cant have everything i want.

Im really glad Chloe came to stay.

It probably would have been better out in Bath if it was actually just us two and maybe the Joes. That way it might not have been quit that much of a disappointment, and more fun.

I dont want to sound funny, but if i want to go out in Bath for my 21st fucking birthday maybe it should be me deciding where we are going..

Bath.

When ever me and my mum go to Bath shopping together we always stop in Thorntons to get a drink and some lunch.

We were in Bath looking around for cake decorations and sprinkles for my birthday where i am going to make shit-loads of cupcakes. So it only seemed fitting that i had a nice pretty cupcake with my strawberry milkshake. Yum.

Bath turned out to be an absolute fail, but the was a shop in Trowbridge that had a whole floor full of sugar craft stuff. We basically bought the shop, and even found the same little heart sprinkles that i had on my cupcake in Thorntons.

Hello Wedges!

They are like heaven on my feet.

in the Shade.

I went to Bath yesterday to have a nice poke about. I had a real browse in Topshop, H&M and Office. There are quite a few things that i deleted from my online Topshop basket after trying them on and them just looking awful on me. Good news though, there where a few more additions after trying things on aswell.

In H&M they had lots of accessories on sale, and lots of sunglasses for only £1! So i bought two. I had to, who wouldn't? But there were a lovely pair of metal aviators for £4.99, and seeing as i have been looking for a pair that fit my face

for years, so naturally i had to get them.

I must say though, my sunglasses collection has got a tad ridiculous. I think i have 9 pairs. Some of them are in Falmouth though, but ill have a count when i go back there in a month or so.

Basically yesterday i was on the hunt for shoes. The black peep-toe

wedges in Topshop or similar really. I found the wedges i was after and they didn't have my size but i tried them on anyway, and they look so amazing. They are £80, but they are suede so i guess thats why they are so expensive. I went to Office afterwards, and there were some similar wedges there, but the ankle was about an inch higher, and the toe was covered, in a nice round toes show. Suede and black again, and they were so comfortable, it was like heaven on my feet. However, these ones are £89. Quite pricey, and WAY out of my budget.

When i got home i had a look on Ebay to see if there where an

y cheaper or maybe second hand, and i found a little gem!

Seeing as Winter is well on the way i was more taken with the idea of a covered toe even if the peep-toes do just look badass. But the office shoes i tried on had a higher ankle than i would have liked. But i found these lovelies, that seem to be the perfect mix between the two. Covered shoe, lower ankle, black wedges. These babies are only £26! Magic. The cost is probably a lot less than the other ones because these are imitation suede rather than real. But they are beautiful none the less.

I bought them. Back to the overdraft for a little while. But i think its worth it. I havn't been able to satisfy my Clothing lust for a while now, so i think i can live with it.

I can't wait for them to get here.

MagRags.

I am loving the upcoming fashions for A/W 2010. Leather, studs, black and white, TONNES of texture, which i love in general. Just all the badass stuff that is coming out and is available in the shops, i never want this to end!

My birthday is soon so im stealing myself for after that so i can go on a little shopping spree, im hoping that by then ill have around £500 if im lucky and then i can literally buy all the things i want. Iv been making baskets in shops all over the internet. Even things in germany. I know i wont be able to buy them. But i can fantasise about it.

In this months issue of ELLE there is a competition to get published, and you have to write a 900-ish word article answering the question.. "Do you really need another pair of shoes?". In a nutshell i said yes because our sanity's depend on it. I don't think ill win in the slightest but it was quite fun. It was just sort of nice to be able to write about something i was interested in and it not being marked at uni or criticised on my blogs. It would be something id like to do i think. Yet another pipe-dream job.

On another note, i need to get the fuck out of here. Literally driving me insane.

Thats it really.

today.

Did excersize all day and felt really good about myself for doing it. My legs have been aching but its a good satisfying ache.

THEN it all goes to shit because my mum comes home with chocolates and my dad is home so i have to have a fucking huge dinner. EURGH.

Waste of a day.

Munch.

Popcorn.

Babybels.

Pistachios.

TEA. (3 Sugars)

Lets go back now?

Actually just want to go back to falmouth. I am so excited for this year. The final year of freedom.

Pea and Basil.

I just made a really nice Pea and Basil paste/dip to go with some salmon.

I was going to do pea and mint but there was no fresh mint, but there was lots of basil.

It was really nice, and flavoursome.

I just made enough to fill one ramekin.

I used frozen peas, and blitzed them with a hand blender. A splash of lemon juice, a table spoon of double cream, salt and pepper, half a tea spoon of garlic granules, a sprinkle of dill and a handful of big fresh Basil Leaves.

I loved it and was pleasantly surprised. I didn't really expect it to turn out that well.

Im not sure salmon is the best thing to have it with though, maybe a less fishy tasting fish, because like i said the paste is full of flavour.

I think im going to experiment with it as a filling for a quiche maybe? Its got that sort of savoury picnic flavour that i like.

Sorry i dont have a picture, i didn't think it would be a success.

The problem with being back at home in my parents house for so long; is that it makes me feel like i should be moving out and having my own house and getting married with a family and just generally being my own parents. I know i have to go back to university but because im nearly 21 and am unable to be my own person in my own space in my parents house its making me feel like i need to move. NOW.

I know really that when i go back to uni i will be happy to have my freedom again, in my nice room, in the wonky house, but at the moment it is just frustrating.

I keep having daydreams about my future house. They are very idealistic daydreams and there are many different houses featured.

One is the most realistic. A flat in Bath. a roof apartment with a nice airy living room and bedroom, with enough space to do some creating. Neutral throughout. White and cream. with some solid brown red and white colours in different rooms. Over looking the streets of bath. If it were to happen then i will need to work hard.

Another daydream is to own an old cottage house near some body of water, which is covered in snow in the winter time, and bathing in beautiful sunshine in the summer. With rooms big enough for the most comfy white leather sofas and a bathroom with a huge white footed bath tub in the middle of the room.

I realise that this is quite a pipe dream, but maybe when im old, it would be the most beautiful retirement home.

I need to leave here basically.

Whether it is back to falmouth or actually to find my own house.

I need to take more pictures while at home.

Car Boot sales are my new job.

That is all.

Ce lieu est une Prison.

I'm 'home'.

It's in italics because i dont really consider Frome to be home anymore. Its a trap. Every holiday i come back to a house with no personality. A room with no me in it. Surroundings with no inspiration. A place with no jobs. I have no source of income. My parents have cut me off. While they are also telling me to do stuff with my car and things that involve money.

There are too many birthdays in july might i add. More money down the drain.

In these desperate financial times i have printed my CV on the quantity of paper that might make up a small forest, and handing them out with no results. Me and my brother are planning on doing a car boot sale with ALL our crap. So that might get quite a nice little bundle. (I have tonnes of old Brand Name stuff and loads of Vintage Jewellery). Im also planning to crack into my life savings to replenish my overdraft. I really didn't think it would come to this at all. But my Topshop addiction really did come to a head last term. I have literally been so stupid with money that my parents are paying my rent over summer, which i am SO thankful for. This has resulted in me being cut off though. So i am literally doing nothing.

I have some ideas that i want to put into action painting wise. But with no room to play with, this is proving difficult. Joe gave me loads of huge canvases and i would really like nothing else than a room to go crazy in with them. But with my room now and the nice carpet that my parents are funny about and the shed all bunged up with crap, there really is no room for me. And everyone wonders why im so wound up lately.

It feels like i have so much to do, and i had loads of plans for the summer that i thought would be cheap and easy to do. But i have no money to my name at the moment.

My overdraft is on £-997.58.

The limit is £1000.

Screwed.

SO YES. no fun for Tash this summer.

Im going to bed to have some more dreams where my teeth fall out and i try to use them as currency to buy a leather bag with studs on. (Which i would like for my birthday)

Ill keep you posted on how my summer is going.

And if i manage to be creative, ill put up some pictures.