I really dont understand.

I dont get it.

Do teenagers think its alright to just hang themselves in their bedrooms and jump of bridges just because they were being bullied? Iv been bullied ALL MY LIFE in some way or another, mainly for being ginger, i can take it with a pinch of salt now, and it really doesn't bother me. But where were the parents of these children telling them that its nothing to worry about and the feeling will pass? Did they watch too many drama programmes and think oh its ok to just snuff it?

Fucking idiots.

Im glad they died. Harsh but do we really need idiotic weak people in the world? I know plenty of gay people, and the reason they are here alive is because they didn't let bullying get them down, they weren't doing it for attention, in most cases its made them better people from being bullied, yes it makes you feel like shit and like you dont want to go to school or whatever, but its a passing thing. IT GOES AWAY.

Obviously like these Teenagers got rid of their lives.

Idiots.

Read about it here.

Also, this blog is entertaining me about the whole thing.. HERE

Lately i have bought so many cookery books.

I can really see myself becoming a food obsessive with recipes and nutrition etc.

This is not a bad thing at all. I love food. Flavours. YUM.

And i think that it is a good sign that i am always willing to make nice food for myself. Even if im alone. There are hardly any times that i cannot be bothered.

Eventually i would love to live somewhere that i was inspired by food and art surrounding me.

Colour and Conversation.

Purchased..

A lovely Website!!

Almond Shortbread Hearts.

Finally..

Finally found her! the person who made this beautiful beast. Debra Baxter. I am in love with her work. It's simplistic, rough, and original. I love it.

Mini Diana.

This is my new toy.

General.

Uni> shite, as always.

Sex project. yay. eurgh.

STUDENT LOAN HELLO!

Spree.

Shopping on friday. Awesome.

Joined the Gym. Fit.

Mexican tomorrow night.

YAY

Seeing C's.

I just recieved these LOVELY jewels from Sugar and Vice Jewellery!

They are so much better than i expected! This was a custom design that they did for me, and man they delivered.

Thankyou Sarah and Arnie!

Some favourites from summer 2010.

Favourites from Venice.

Favourites from Glasto 09.

Back in the Fal area.

Pretty Ecstatic about having a new housemate, who ADORES FOOD!!!

like recipes and healthy stuff and she at this moment in time is cooking a steak casserole thing and it smells INCREDIBLE. literally cant describe how good it smells.

Proper home comfort food. I wish someone would hurry up and invent a way to share smell over the internet.

Other than this, the last day and a half has been pretty boring.

Today i was bored beyond belief. With joe at uni aswell i didn't have anyone to talk to all day.

Though chloe was on skype so that was slightly better.

I'm thinking to tackle my boredom now, and prevent myself eating everything in the fridge out of boredom , i will scan in some pictures. From Venice, polaroids, Glasto 09 possibly..

I will post a few up here in a while.

Everything.

9.10 again.

Oh well.

I had some soup today, and i dont think i'll have much else.

I am meant to be packing to go back to uni, but i dont think it will really take that long so i am really procrastinating, When all i have to do is bung some clothes in a bag and some books for uni in a box.

Im being so lazy.

Joe started uni again today, and found out that from now he has 5 day weeks. So any time he comes to falmouth will be really short visits, probably only for a day. Two if we are lucky.

I knew third year was going to be harder, but i thought it meant work-wise. I dont want it to put a strain on me and joe, when we might not be able to see each other at all.

Basically if there are ANY sections of time that last for more than two whole days and i dont have to do anything, i am going back to see joe.

I'm shitting it really though. I have to do my dissertation. I have to work with a museum project. I have to make a huge final year project full of research and stuff.

I have to be professional and not go out all the time. I have already resolved as to not going to the clubs this year. No matter what. Club-I and Shades are officially Banned from my falmouth nights. I want to avoid people that annoy me. I want to avoid people who i dont like. I want to avoid people with whom i have false conversations with. I want to erase people from my life this year as i get ready for my real life after uni. I don't know what anyone would really think of that. But i will get a first. And i dont need any pointless distractions getting in my way.

It sounds petty but as soon as term ends in the summer. and my uni life is over. I will be deleting all the people that i hope to never see again from facebook. I know a few of them there will be no doubt that i will forget them and they will forget me. I really couldn't care less about these people. I know everyone says to never burn your bridges, but screw that. I hate these people.

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There is a plan-ish, after uni. Me and joe will go travelling. Ending up in australia or new zealand. We are planning on getting full time jobs from the moment we finish uni and then saving all money possible for getting out of this country. Leaving after christmas in 2012. Starting off city hopping in europe, if we like there stay a few days, if we hate somewhere leave straight away. Work from southern europe like Italy, up to Switzerland and above, then moving across via train to Moscow. Then down to Japan. I somehow want to do a brief visit to india. Literally to go sight seeing. Japan is daunting for me, but that is joe's main place. And really why not? when am i ever going to see it again. Joe was on about getting a job in australia and things but it just sounds exactly what his brother did, and i think joe would be disappointed in australia. It is the UK, just hotter. But im not going to make his mind up for him. New Zealand however... YES. I am not really that interested in seeing much of america. It would be an experience. but it just doesn't appeal to me as of yet.

I just want to experience something that is new. Uni.. what a fucking joke.

Baked.

I made some shortbread today....

I also made some Cupcakes...

The Cupcakes dont look as good as the Shortbread.

I am so chuffed with the biscuits i might just make loads and sell them next term when we have to raise money for our exhibition show.

Damn.

So after getting to 9st9lbs, for some reason, today i have shot back up to 9st11 and im not really that happy about it.

I havn't done anything different either. Though it could be from natural womanly causes, but still. Annoying.

Decided.

I will weigh 9st by the 1st December.

and when i reach this goal i will buy myself some lovely new undies for christmas.

Yes.

Need.

Hat.

Shy Duck.

Shopped.

I little shopping on a friday in bath. I love it. I only really spent £26 but i had a voucher to use at Topshop, so that helped alot. I got a Tweed look jacket, its so soft and lovely, and some high-waisted jeans, they look black in the picture but they are just dark blue, and i got a couple of simple tees from H&M. I was actually a little disappointed with both of the shops today, even though i wasn't going to buy much more than this, i was at least hoping to try some things on so that i could see if they were worth having in my online baskets. But no, there was only one in Topshop and one in H&M. Oh well. It was a nice little purchase anyway. I cant wait to wear it all out.

The Beginnings of Uni work.

Year Three is upon us and i need to get a move on, i have a lot of work to do before the beginning of term.